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calliopes_pen) wrote2006-02-24 02:26 pm
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Willow Posts
I’ve been writing for Willow for a little while over at btvsats_20, and finally decided to post my responses to each question in my own journal. A bit easier to keep track of things here. This is also being crossposted to my strega_willow journal.
I guess you could consider these drabbles. They are all from Willow's point of view.
Challenge #1:
How did I survive last night? With magic, and insanity, and countless tears. And friendship to keep me from completely losing it and taking the world with me. Losing the person who means the most to you in all the world is devastating. Post that grief induced madness, the world is a darker place.
Considering destroying the world was suicide, and I knew this. I was insane with the shock and grief, and taking a stupid way out. Controlling the magic will be the next step--after I can stop crying, that is. Being held in someone's arms just allowed it all to come pouring out.
How will I go on after tonight? With love. And memories.
Challenge #2:
What haunts my nightmares?
It's not who you think. It's the person who took away everything I had. The person who, in one instant, ripped apart my soul for the first time. In just one moment, I wasn't powerful enough. I wasn't fast enough.
Attempting revenge through magic didn't change things one bit.
The person who haunts my nightmares, you see...is Glory. Not for her power. Not for her taunts...just for her actions. She took Tara from me for that first time. She took her to a place where I couldn't be...a place where I couldn't get through to her. In that moment, I realized how vulnerable to pain I was.
It was a moment that forever changed me.
Challenge #3: Set during season 3.
What is my favorite daydream? Well, I have quite a few, but my favorite?
My biggest daydream is something that would never happen. Giles learning how to use a computer, and becoming an expert hacker. A rival for me, if you will. The poor man loves his books more than technology--he even describes the computer as "that dread machine."
I just know that one of these days, Giles will have to come into the 20th century. I just want to see the bookaholic watcher learn to use computers for research. If he would give it a chance, he might like it. Of course, after the incident with scanning a demon into the computer, you can’t blame the guy for not trusting techology.
Even if it would take an army of Watchers to tie him to the chair in front of the computer. Maybe he could even use a chat room. I can practically hear his gasp of horror at the suggestion from outside Sunnydale High. Heh.
And if Giles ever actually fell in love with the internet, Buffy would need to check him for possession.
One of my lesser daydreams would be becoming a pro with the magic. Like that’ll ever happen. I can see it now: I would be the expert at pencil floating...
Challenge #4—Set after Tough Love.
Set after Tough Love.
What do I see when I close my eyes?
Most of the time, I see Tara--as she was before Glory completely changed her. But there are times when, in the darkest moments of the night when I think of the moment that I finally accepted the fight against evil and vampires and things that go "grr" wouldn’t be as simple as I hoped.
I remember what I told Buffy back then. It seems like a lifetime ago, after all the terrors I've seen.
I knew those guys. I go to that room every day. And when I walked in there, it...it wasn't our world anymore. They made it theirs. And they had fun.
Blood everywhere--a massacre. Bodies (friends, not just bodies) strewn carelessly about--and put in poses like they were still alive. Long before Angelus reared his head and came into our lives, that image was something that I never thought would leave my mind. Not the kind of thing you forget, even when you learn as much as you can to protect yourself and those you love.
Even after all these years, it’s something that will always lurk in my mind’s eye. The only thing I can do now...the only thing I am willing to do...is focus on the present. And the sweetest girl I’ve ever known, and pray we survive Glory’s wrath.
btvsats_20, and finally decided to post my responses to each question in my own journal. A bit easier to keep track of things here. This is also being crossposted to my strega_willow journal.I guess you could consider these drabbles. They are all from Willow's point of view.
Challenge #1:
How did I survive last night? With magic, and insanity, and countless tears. And friendship to keep me from completely losing it and taking the world with me. Losing the person who means the most to you in all the world is devastating. Post that grief induced madness, the world is a darker place.
Considering destroying the world was suicide, and I knew this. I was insane with the shock and grief, and taking a stupid way out. Controlling the magic will be the next step--after I can stop crying, that is. Being held in someone's arms just allowed it all to come pouring out.
How will I go on after tonight? With love. And memories.
Challenge #2:
What haunts my nightmares?
It's not who you think. It's the person who took away everything I had. The person who, in one instant, ripped apart my soul for the first time. In just one moment, I wasn't powerful enough. I wasn't fast enough.
Attempting revenge through magic didn't change things one bit.
The person who haunts my nightmares, you see...is Glory. Not for her power. Not for her taunts...just for her actions. She took Tara from me for that first time. She took her to a place where I couldn't be...a place where I couldn't get through to her. In that moment, I realized how vulnerable to pain I was.
It was a moment that forever changed me.
Challenge #3: Set during season 3.
What is my favorite daydream? Well, I have quite a few, but my favorite?
My biggest daydream is something that would never happen. Giles learning how to use a computer, and becoming an expert hacker. A rival for me, if you will. The poor man loves his books more than technology--he even describes the computer as "that dread machine."
I just know that one of these days, Giles will have to come into the 20th century. I just want to see the bookaholic watcher learn to use computers for research. If he would give it a chance, he might like it. Of course, after the incident with scanning a demon into the computer, you can’t blame the guy for not trusting techology.
Even if it would take an army of Watchers to tie him to the chair in front of the computer. Maybe he could even use a chat room. I can practically hear his gasp of horror at the suggestion from outside Sunnydale High. Heh.
And if Giles ever actually fell in love with the internet, Buffy would need to check him for possession.
One of my lesser daydreams would be becoming a pro with the magic. Like that’ll ever happen. I can see it now: I would be the expert at pencil floating...
Challenge #4—Set after Tough Love.
Set after Tough Love.
What do I see when I close my eyes?
Most of the time, I see Tara--as she was before Glory completely changed her. But there are times when, in the darkest moments of the night when I think of the moment that I finally accepted the fight against evil and vampires and things that go "grr" wouldn’t be as simple as I hoped.
I remember what I told Buffy back then. It seems like a lifetime ago, after all the terrors I've seen.
I knew those guys. I go to that room every day. And when I walked in there, it...it wasn't our world anymore. They made it theirs. And they had fun.
Blood everywhere--a massacre. Bodies (friends, not just bodies) strewn carelessly about--and put in poses like they were still alive. Long before Angelus reared his head and came into our lives, that image was something that I never thought would leave my mind. Not the kind of thing you forget, even when you learn as much as you can to protect yourself and those you love.
Even after all these years, it’s something that will always lurk in my mind’s eye. The only thing I can do now...the only thing I am willing to do...is focus on the present. And the sweetest girl I’ve ever known, and pray we survive Glory’s wrath.
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